I started my class on Makeup Artistry (at last!) and this is my 2nd week into that. Maybe it has been a long time since i started study, there are tonnes of notes and i'm being paranoid here and there. I admit i don't have a natural gift for makeup, but i do like having makeup on. its like another side of me (with and without makeup). I believe that makeup can build up confidence and i really enjoy my mornings with my makeup collection.
Maybe i'm not gaining enough support from my surroundings and im getting quite down already. Even don't really have the mood on the class. In class, for me its quite rushed! The procedure is that the "teacher" do once on the model and we have to do it already. That happens every lesson. I'm so afraid that i would forget and i would always rethink of what had happen in class when i'm in the bus on my way home! (i think the stress of thinking that i would forget the steps make me more paranoid!)
My baby doesn't like me to practice on his face! T.T
My hands tend to tremble when i'm nervous! T.T
No one to practice except on my own face! T.T
Suddenly i would feel that is it wrong that i am in? I like making myself pretty and others pretty. Sometimes i really feel that being a MUA is an impossible dream.
Sigh! Shall not rant anymore! Here is a look from class. Look at the uber thick foundation! I did not do this, my partner is class did my look :)